( Disclaimer- please don't judge me from these lines... i am still single )
Hamari pheli mulakaat thi or, Meri bike uske PG ke bhar thi , ha , mana ki thoda wkt leti hai vo tyar Hone mei , fir bhi pta nhi kyu us din , uska intzaar , intzaar nhi lga , or
jse hi , vo mere samne aayi , samaj aaya ki khuda ki kitni mehnat lgi hogi , mere khuda ko tarashne mei , uski dil-nashii ankheen , ankho mei kajal , lambe baal ,
khoobsurat chehra , man tha ki bta du use ki kitni khoobsoorat lg rhi ho tum , par kese , ki tum bhot khoobsurat ho , nhi ye lafz uski khoobsurti ko byan krne ke liye
mukammal na the, or kuch deir sochne ke baad samajh aaya ,, ki jiske liye tu soch rha hai uskiiiii , tareef hi mumkin nhi hai , dhire dhire hmari baate hone lgi or usne
mujhe btaaya ki kse uska breakup hua or kse vo use chod kar chla gya , par , ab hmari baaten kuch khas hone lgi thi , boyfriend ke sare kaydee , usne mujhe sikha diye
the , jab vo muskurati thi to dil mei kuch kuch hota tha or ye vhi kuch kuch tha jo kisi jhule par bethkar , upr se niche aate wkt hota hai ,hum ghnto baate karte or meri kisi
nadani par vo muskurakar bol deti thi ki tum , abhi new new ho , or mei , baat ko ye soch kar taal deta ki shyad , mujhe ladkio se baat karna nhi aata , or aata bhi kse ,
pheli baar kisi ladki se baat jo hui thi , bhot khas thi vo mere liye , itni ke sardio ki subha jb vo uthe , to mei apni hatheli uske paav ke niche rakh du kyu ki zameen , bhot
thandi hoti hai na , uski baato ko uske bina khe hi mehsuus lga tha mei , use kya chahiye ya nhi sb pta tha mujhe , or mere maslee , to bus uski smile par hi khatam ho jate
the ,vo meri khuda thi , or uske ishaaro par kse nachna hai, mere pyar ne sikha diya tha mujhe ,us se baat krte wkt lgta tha , mano wkt bhi humse dga kr rha ho , or hmari
baaten suru hote hi , kambhakat wkt ke peemane bhi sikud jaate the or 4 bje uthne wala ab 4:30 bje sone lga tha ,or ek din hum baate kr rhe the , or kabhi ek esa moment
hota h na ,jisme kuch sec ke liye dono ki baate khatam ho jaati hai or fir dono mei se koi ek “or bta “ bolkar us moment ko khatam karta hai , or us din hmari baat bhi usi
moment par thi , par is baar “or bta “ ki jaghan kuch alag puch liya ki pyar kya hota hai , vo muskurai or boli Tum abhi new new ho tumhe pyar ko smjhne mei abhi wkt lge
ga ,hum bhot khus the or lgta tha ki shyad hm ek dusre ko smjhte hai ,baaten karte wkt hum dono , apne sare kaam bhul jaate or , pheli hi ring mei phone uthana hum
dono ne seekh liya tha , khana khaya ya nhi , meri maa ke alawa ye baat mujhse koi or bhi puchne lga tha ,lekin , lekin 3 – 4 mulakato ke baad lga jese mujhse koi galti hui
hai , galti esi jise maaf na kiya ja ske, pta nhi kyu , jis majak par phele vo hasti thi aaj usi par use gussa aane lga tha , uske ghr ke kaam kuch bdh se gye the or, jo ladki
phone na krne par se gussa ho jati thi aaj vhi , mere phone krne par gussa hone lgi thi ,kisi ko khone ka dar bhot bhayanak hota hai or us din , mujhe us dar ka ehsas hua ,
socha aaj sub kuch puch hi luga ki kyu kr rhi hai vo esa ,mei apne dosto ke saath betha tha , or use phone lgaya ,or bhot puchne par usne btaaya bhi , ki hmara koi future
nhi hai , mere papa tumhe accept nhi krege or aaj ke baad mujhe kabhi call mt krna ,ye baat sunkar mere dosto ki hssi kisi sannatee mei kaid ho chuki thi , or mere
hontho se ek lafz na nikla par na chahte hue bhi meri ankho se ashq nikl gye , us din mei khul kar roya kyu ki aaj , meri aankhe pochne wala koi nhi tha , or us din new –
new ka mtlb samajh aaya kyu ki mei ab puraana ho chuka tha , or fir agle din mene socha , nhi ese hmara rista khatam nhi ho sakta , abhi to mere sare sapne adhoore the
, andr se awaj aayi ki sb shi kr duga or use phone kiya ,par thodi si bhulakkad bhi thi vo usne phone nhi uthaya, shyad phone ghr bhul gyi hogi , or uski , wapis kabhi call
nhi aayi , vo thik hai ya nhi aksr fikr hoti thi mujhe , to isi liye mne uski friend ko phone kiya jo meri bhi achi dost thi , or jaise hi usne phone uthaaya mne pucha ksi hai vo ,
tumhaara to breakup ho gya tha na , or mei muskuraate hue bola nhi pagal , vo mujhse naraz hai , vo boli ki bhot bhola hai tu agar naraz hi hoti to kisi ke saath aaj date
par nhi jaati ,or us din mujhe fir se ehsaas hua ki mei bhot puraana ho chuka hu kyu ki aaj fir vo kisi new ke saath thi , par is baar udasi ki jaghan magruri thi ki ab mujhe
bhi us ki zaroot nhi ,uski saari purani baate black board par ghiste hue chalk ki kar karansh ki tharah mere kaano mei chubhne lgi thi , akele rhna meri majboori or fitrat
dono bn gye the , ghnto apne upr us chatt ko dekhta or sochta ki ye mujh par kyu nhi girti , marne ka bhot man tha , par himmat nhi ,lagta tha maano sabhi meri udaasi
par has rhe hai or gardan jhukaye mei , unki hasi sun ne ko majboor tha , or fir ek din socha kb tak chle ga esa , or bdi muskil se mne khud ko smbhala , or apna wkt dosto
ke saath gujaarne lga , mei lag-bhag sab kuch bhul hi gya tha ki zindgi mei fir koi khas aayi , uski dil-nashii ankhe ankho mei kajal lambe baal khoobsurat chehra , or
hmari baate bdhne lgi , baat krte wkt hum apne saare kaam bhul jaate , or vo mera pheli hi ring mei phone uthaati , hum bhot khus the lagta tha jse hum ek dusre ko
smjhte hain , or ek din for usi moment par mene fir se pucha ki “pyar kya hota hai “ or vo muskurai or boli ki tum abhi new new ho
Theashutoshsharma
